Tuesday, June 9, 2009


Thursday, July 17, 2008

"Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined." Henry David Thoreau

It has come to the time where I am in the position to make or break the rest of my life. The problem is, I don't know which action will ensure success or which action will result in failure. Whilst I have far flung dreams of the future and indeed spend many a waking hour playing out these roles in my mind, I am yet to work out how to get there from the position I am currently in. The jump seems out of reach, too far, unattainable. Yet, if I don't strive for these dreams, I do not know what I will do with my life. I must make that leap as in not doing so, I won't be doing anything at all. I'll be stuck in limbo, with no ambition or inspiration. I will not let that happen...

Henceforth, I am forced to attempt to make the right decisions without any guide as to what they might be.

I feel unable to express my wishes for the future, the hopes I have and the changes I intended to achieve. People do not understand my motivation, nor do they see how these dreams could ever become reality. They tell me I should be realistic - that life itself will put an end to these whims as the necessity of living will overcome my attempts to strive for the life I desire. I am worried that I too shall gain their negativity. If I do, I end up in that place of limbo, which is the most unsatisfactory form of life.

That said, I am scared to post my intentions for fear of failure. Whilst they remain in the rooms of my mind - each room holding a different dream, a different path, although all result in a similar end - no one except me can laugh at their far-reaching nature. No one except me can laugh when I fail. However, to achieve them I believe help will be required in which case I must let someone see past these closed doors.

Maybe by this time next year I will have achieved some of the first steps towards making these dreams a reality, which in turn will benefit those around me. Or maybe I will have already given in to the demands of everyday life. I suppose only time will tell but I know for certain, the former is a far more desirable belief to hold on to...

"Hold fast to dreams for if dreams die, life is a broken winged bird that cannot fly." Lanston Hughes
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Labels: Dreams, Ideals, Life Goals

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